To every girl who gossiped about me in corners of parties, to those who were my slap in the face, to the close minded or misunderstanding, to those boys that broke my heart, and to those friends who turned out to be back stabbers. You all challenged me to become the person I wanted to be. I am stronger because of all the stupid things you put me through.Call me a slut. Call me a whore. Call me whatever. I’ve heard it before. Say that I’m fake. Say that I lie. Say what you want.thanks to everyone who put me through hell and back my first 2 1/2 years of highschool♥Some know me as Ashley others know me as “whore,slut,scene,emo, girl,the bitch, fatass, no life” but thats definately not my name on july 6th i was pronounced as Ashley Olanda Estrada. I got called alot of names,when i was younger they use to get to me all the time I would get extremely depressed and of course nobody knew that probably until …….. they everyone reads this. and im sure they also didnt know i DID attempt to harm myself in many ways.TO the guy that told me to kill myself you know who you are thank you for that awesome attempt…not! so  Say what you want im not going to hide anything its the truth and i hope all you guys that hurt me or anyone else reads this and feels like complete shit. what if this was your sister,friend,bestfriend, or just anyone.During my frosh soph year  I would sit at home crying all alone because I had nobody there for me my parents always worked and Im the only girl and I couldnt talk to my brothers I would have felt uncomfortable. But now im getting to my comfort zone taking pictures like these that have a meaning to it. No im not putting this on the internet so people could feel sorry for me or to put anyone on the spot.Nobody should be called any name besides there real name or a nickname. All these people i called my “friends” were actually just there when they were bored.I really did think they were my friends until they actually said stuff like your a whore or would call me scene or emo and they would laugh about it.Its really not a joke this is a reason why alot of teens are suicidal.NOBODY should ever be put in a situation where its your life at risk just to make other people happy because  someone else thought it was a joke.So before you call someone something hurtful think twice you dont know if they have depression or even a bad day. You dont even know there lifestyle. Me for one I always played it off as being happy and never ever talked about how i felt the only place i felt safe was on the internet until i got blackmailed on myspace and facebook and even formspring i got nasty messages from people. Freshman year- was i shy? yes.. did i always wear a sweater like everyday even though it was hot out?yess  theres a reason i did. did i start to change the way i dressed and looked? yes. did i start smoking marijuana because it made me feel better and put me into my own zone?yes

sophmore year-did i start getting into alot of trouble with girl like fighting?yes did my attitute towards people change like it was payback for them?yes.did i start doing things girls my age shouldnt be doing like drugs or drinking alot?mhmm

Now i realize treating those people the way they treated me is not worth it at all. people say words are just words no words are meaningful. But thank you everyone for making me into a way stronger indivisual<3without you guys i wouldnt have realize im not who YOU say i am.. I am who I am and Now im happy to finally let out my emotions and for you guys to get to know the real me.